*133 - unnecessary

Unwanted. Not exactly despised, but just a general feeling of being superfluous (I know that's the wrong way to use the word), like if I vanished, no one would notice and no one would really honestly truly deeply care very much, not for long at least. Everybody's lives would just keep on functioning perfectly normally without me, I'm not the gear that keeps you ticking, I'm not that little jigsaw piece, I'm unnecessary.

Sometimes it's not enough to be the essential of that one person's life. Although I am very thankful for him and I don't know how I would cope without. But it's not everything. The feeling of being in a crowd and feeling alone, but worse yet, the feeling of being in a crowd of people you know and still feeling utterly, helplessly alone.