*340 - puffy

I've never wished harder for a "rewind" button in my life. Never.

Now all I can do is to keep it on "play" and trust God for the wisdom to handle whatever comes my way.

I know everything will be okay in the end, that I know, but I don't know why things had to happen this way, and I don't know why I had to screw up so majorly.

He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper.
- Psalms 1:3

Everything will be fine, right?

I'm not ______ and now I must ______ and ______, and pray that ______, then ______. But ______.

ARGH this is not working. asdfjkl;@$gh

My eyelids are so ridiculously swollen that there's not enough space for my eyes to open and so I'm walking around with my eyes half closed and an ice cube on my eyelids (in a bid to bring down the swelling).

And it doesn't help that I've been randomly crying throughout the day. Even when talking about totally harmless things like giving tuition, or doing irrelevant things like looking for recipes.

I think it's really strange how emotional pain can sometimes be translated into physical pain. It's like a giant hand is constricting me and spreading dull aches across my chest. It hurts, in every way.