*207 - part two

I think Miss Wu really saved me from an untimely death today. (Ok, maybe I'm exaggerating too much.) But looking back, God really blesses me, He put the exact person in the exact place at the exact time for me. One lift later and I wouldn't have met her along the way. Stammering "thank you" was all I could muster at that time but it really isn't adequate. I shall pass a message from Joel to her I think, the next time they have Bible study haha.

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So, had a chat with Ms Lim about my crisis today, who hasn't heard any complaints from her about me since day one until now, so she guesses that it's a matter of being swamped with recommendation requests and all. That could be the case, I suppose, and somewhat understandably, except something's bugging me - it's only MY recommendation that she's majorly stressed up about. She made it a point to be extra loud in her praises and good lucks and encouragement to other people while I was waiting for my turn, even though their forms were in huge messes and everything was wrong (no return address, etc), which made my address mistake seem a little minor in comparison. Smiley, good-natured, earnest, gracious, the way a teacher normally acts.

She turns to me, black clouds descend thunder rolls lightning strikes, and heated scolding commences. At least she didn't really shout this time. (Cannot shout in staff room lah.)

I was trying my best to be respectful and humble and said sorry sorry sorry, looked suitably upset, and everything. I mean, I really was.

A bad recommendation would have to be backed up with evidence, and for the life of me I can't think of anything majorly bad she can truthfully write in there. I know for a fact that she had always liked me because I pay attention in class, I do all my work, I get the A's, I have friendly little chats with her whenever I meet her along the corridors, I respect her as a teacher. If I really did something grievously wrong, I must be blind not to have noticed.

Or maybe she will write, like what she was ranting about, "very troublesome and inconsiderate - enjoys bothering me for recommendations". Or "Extremely careless student - gave me the wrong address for this envelope." Haha! No I'm just kidding. Anyone sane would realise that that speaks volumes more about the teacher than the student.

But I still wish I knew what on earth I did to completely transform myself from pet student to most-hated-student-who-must-be-punished-with-extreme-malice.

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Really pray that God will remove anything that's bothering her or stressing her out, and give her the generosity and kindness of heart to write a good recommendation for every single student. And that I will be able to let go, not bear grudges, and leave it in His hands.