*495 - i wanna go home

Just had a couple of hours of rehearsals and I'm whacked. I can't believe our show's tomorrow!! :D Pandora Released. (Which is kind of funny because Evil was released from Pandora's Box, and only Hope remains. From what I remember about Greek mythology.) I'm a little nervous because in RGS/RJC we would practice and practice and practice until there was no possibility of anyone screwing up in the dance, but here, we've practiced about 1/4 as much and the show's tomorrow. Wow.

Wrote that yesterday, but forgot to continue. Dance performance today!!

There are so many random things I've been meaning to talk about: Dr Carroll's $50 giveaways, Black Friday, Thanksgiving break, highlight of the week (talking to dearest LIRU), last week of classes, SNOW (everything's white!!), Christmassy things, settlers, new house back in Singapore (pretty!), study break, projects, finals, ...

But meh. Feeling under the weather all over again, and that has nothing to do with the fact that it's -8 degrees C now.

Really thankful for the very coincidentally timely call from Kenneth last night (even though we ended up talking about his gf for the most part hehe), because it came just at the moment when I was on the verge of crying myself to sleep. Reminder that God makes all things beautiful (everything good, everything wonderful). And puts great people in my life as well. Yup.

Sent an SOS text as well and I think Josh must be sick of me and my whining but I also think he is one of the few who understands without me saying anything for the simple reason that he was part of the whole mess and must be going through what I am though in a completely different way. Either that or he could be just humouring me heh. But whatever it is, his little piece of advice has been running through my head on repeat since 2 am last night, and though it is easier said than done, I think that's eventually what I'll have to do.

More cupcakes for Josh haha.

And now I'm crying again but that's because mummy sent me the best email ever.

"Of course I too miss you very dearly. When you said you're homesick, I also cried and I'm crying now. For all these 19 years, I've been taking care of you and now I miss "mummying" you. It's hard to let go of my children. Yes, Evelyn, mummy misses you. Take care. Mummy loves you."

I just wanna go home.

I even checked out the ticket prices, but I can't afford to spend S$3000 on going home for 2 weeks. Since I already made plans to go to Cancun in January. Sigh.

I really do wanna go home.